Monday is always such a difficult day at work and I've found myself in a melancholy mood. This may sound strange, but there are times when I think that's just what the Dr. has ordered. Let me explain. I have one of those brains that never stops thinking, but the majority of the thoughts are nothing more than nonsense. There are running commentaries about anything and nothing at all and sometimes all at the same time. It's exhausting really. So when I find myself in a melancholy mood that usually means there's clarity and a single thought with conclusions instead of just "fluff" floating about between my ears. Hubby says I spend most of my time with my head in the clouds and my feet off the ground...he's so right!
So why the melancholy? Why the clarity? I don't know, but I kind of like the silence in my head. It's unfamiliar and novel and sometimes intimidating to be alone with such thoughts.
Easter Sunday we decided to make a huge change in our lives and left the church we've been at for 3 years. Leaving a church is never a fun thing and you wonder who do you tell, do you tell, and what do you say without hurting any one's feelings or do you just slip out the door unnoticed? The truth is that after 3 years barely anyone knew we were even there. So, we have decided to plant ourselves where we should have been all the time and Easter seemed like a good time to open a new chapter in our lives.
Maybe this is the reason for the melancholy...maybe not!