Monday, April 13, 2009

Maybe...Maybe Not!

Monday is always such a difficult day at work and I've found myself in a melancholy mood. This may sound strange, but there are times when I think that's just what the Dr. has ordered. Let me explain. I have one of those brains that never stops thinking, but the majority of the thoughts are nothing more than nonsense. There are running commentaries about anything and nothing at all and sometimes all at the same time. It's exhausting really. So when I find myself in a melancholy mood that usually means there's clarity and a single thought with conclusions instead of just "fluff" floating about between my ears. Hubby says I spend most of my time with my head in the clouds and my feet off the ground...he's so right!
So why the melancholy? Why the clarity? I don't know, but I kind of like the silence in my head. It's unfamiliar and novel and sometimes intimidating to be alone with such thoughts.

Easter Sunday we decided to make a huge change in our lives and left the church we've been at for 3 years. Leaving a church is never a fun thing and you wonder who do you tell, do you tell, and what do you say without hurting any one's feelings or do you just slip out the door unnoticed? The truth is that after 3 years barely anyone knew we were even there. So, we have decided to plant ourselves where we should have been all the time and Easter seemed like a good time to open a new chapter in our lives.
Maybe this is the reason for the melancholy...maybe not!

8 comments:

Maryjane - The Beehive Cottage said...

Hello Cori!

I sat at the kids table! LOL! We had more fun than anyone.

Thanks for sharing your feelings Cori. I pray that you will find peace and doors will open to you. I am grateful for the church I belong to...kinda like a second family! I would love to share it with you!

Wishing you a sweet week!

Hugs,
Maryjane

Deborah said...

My friend, I understand every single word, from fluff in the brain...melancholy clarity...to finding a new church home. Trust that He led you there. **blows kisses** Deborah

Andrea said...

Cori, I understand, too. Sometimes we just need a while to reflect and gather our thoughts. And I think change does often invoke such feelings.

God has his hand on every detail of our lives. He is with you as you make this adjustment to a new church. After a while, you will look back and see His awesome handiwork!

Many, many blessings to you today, my sweet friend.

Andrea

kbbryant said...

Oh Cori, I appreciate your honesty. I too have a fluffy brain, and know melancholy well. It is a strange emotion...difficult to describe sometimes. I hope you find just what you need at the new church and are able to make connections.

Have a peaceful day...Kathy b

ellen b. said...

Oh that is a big step. Blessings on your journey and I hope the next stop is filled with new life and growth :0)

Down the Rabbit Hole said...

Cori,
Thank you for sharing. I am so much like that so I understand very well. I pray that you are blessed beyond measure at your new church as I am sure you will be a blessing to them! I am so enjoying your blog! I absolutely love your kitchen!
Blessings,
Selia

Cori G. said...

Thank you ladies for all your encouragement. I feel as if I've come full circle in a sense as the church we decided to go to is the parent church where I first gave my life to the Lord. We know the theology, that we will be fed a steady diet of God's word, and that there's room to grow and get involved. I'm looking forward to it!!

xoxo Cori

Just A Gal... said...

I am giving you a big Hug!!!

I know the feel all to well.... Melancholy is a friend of mine... I just think it make me deep and soulful at times... at least that is what I tell myself so I don't slip into depression...

It's sounds like you and your Hubby made a big decision and I know it has to be the right one...because you both made it as one and although it may be hard you have each other holding hands in the direction you are going in life... that is what helps me so much when I feel like me and Hubby are alone... we have our own "team"

Hugs!!!
Natalie